plagued me since the beginning

My parents and cousins sometimes say I have a short fuse, I'm easily angered by the slightest of inconveniences. I strive to  correct that part of me, but it seems it's a bit out of reach for now. Just this afternoon, I blew up and it was the most irritating thing to see if you were not me. I was such a douche, my god. The reasons for this was of a super childish thing, I leave a pen for two minutes unattended and it's already gone, the worse part is that the culprit had the balls to practically show it in my face, that was why I was irritated this afternoon, who does that? If you're stealing from someone, don't wave the stolen item at their face. The sad part is he was so smug about it, the idiot had the balls to show the item, use it, and plainly hint at it, that it was stolen. I am not dense enough not to fall for it. The other sad thing is, ok I asked to borrow a pen, he gave me the pen he was using before, I have seen his writing and saw him write with that same pen. Magically he uses a better pen, saying the dumbest excuse you can think of, "I got it from my bag.", my face at that time was part astounded that someone could lie that bad and furious that someone that idiotic stole my pen. As the better man, I just let it mostly slide, and after that whole incident my mind was basically a country preparing for war, later as I calmed down a little, that country became a bunch of passive-aggressive hippies, that concludes this post for today, but to be honest, If I could get away with a crime for one day, I would go to his house, provided I know the address, and throw every gadget and appliance out the window, pour gas on it and watch it burn, burn with the hatred I have built up over the years.

Brightest ideas may come from the most absurd of places

       A person who has the right determination can do anything, provided he has the material and means to do it. An invention that revolutionizes a product, you may be wondering, " What is this nutjob thinking about this time?", well you see I have come to appreciate the plastic in the middle of the stick'o jar, it helps especially if your as inadequate as me, but what bugs me the most  is that the ones in the outer rim are a pain to remove, of course you could always just break a piece in half and the rest will loosen up, but I don't like that, I feel dirty when I have to do that.

Really should visit grandma

  My grandma died a few months ago and I was too lazy to even come to her funeral, I know that is low even for me. I have made preparations that next time we visit I will makes sure to visit her. She was a typical grandma, most of the time she'll forget my name, I couldn't careless a the time but now I see that, basically she died and forgot about me. Wow that a heavy topic, I just realized that when you die you'll be forgetting everything. That's like something your brain would think of in the middle of the night. Death an inevitable phenomena, the process in which sentience leaves your body. Maybe that's why people are afraid of death.

Why did I pick this topic again?

For some strange reason I seem to think I'm random, but really that's not the case. I think random might have been an exaggeration and purposely being something that will either shock them or plain make them face-palm. There was this incident in which I became, wary? I don't know it's the feeling of not knowing what lies ahead and also the fear of the past. I don't know, what am I supposed to be writing, I guess about random stuff, judging by the name of the blog or something completely idiotic, by my username, but how about both? I had a pretty strange childhood, I had a friend which was older than me and was supposed to be my "role model" at the time, not happening. Looking back he was an extremely annoying douche, forgive m language but man he was a douche. Well luckily enough his brother wasn't like him, or else I would have ended far more idiotic than I am today, I mean the guy danced as he bathed in the open. he was like in 5th grade I think, dude was strange.

If I learned one thing from this year

     If there's something I have learned  from last year is that I should worry less and focus more. I have lived far too long to be afraid of what comes tomorrow and long enough to notice that I need to pull things together, too long have I lived as a good for nothing. I want to learn many things that would ultimately lead me to be a functioning human in a society. It's funny how it's only at this time that I came to my senses, before I used to view something that happened unrelated to me, but boy have I been wrong. An incident may lead to affecting a person which in-turn affects other people and I'm willing to bet that that same incident will cause something bad to happen. As I'm writing this I just remembered that I have not visited grandma's grave, such a shame, but such is the course of nature.

slightly obsessed with tests

Have you ever wondered how long you could keep your breath underwater or how much rice you can eat with a minimum amount of "ulam". I am slightly  amazed by those tests, for example in the past summer I have tried to grow my hair and see how long it gets, amazingly enough it gave me a sorta afro-looking hairstyle, The next test I conducted was how long I could grow my fingernails in the span of a month, sadly enough I failed because the nails sometimes scratches my scalp and in rare occasions bruising it, I have noticed that it is easier to clean when it is long. Another test is when my father got his toenail injured and it stared to remove itself from his big toe, I joked of the idea of making it a necklace or a goodluck charm, but he was opposed to the idea. Next summer which is rapidly approaching  I will try how long I can keep a positive attitude, as far as I'm concerned that test won't last very long as I am a rather grouchy person.

2016 BAYBY!

                        It's finally 2016! woooooOoooOOoooo! A driving factor for me last year was to improve my lifestyle, last year I was pretty much slug, it was a really slow year for me and maybe it was because I stayed in bed for too long or I hadn't had the sun directly touch me in about half a month. Reality sometimes gets boring when you watch anime. So for this year I have challenged  myself to create a story and actually get some decent exercise for once. The exercising is a  common new years resolution, but not many actually follow through with it, as for the story it's a adventure story. I have not worked out the details of it but I have started I would like my " friends " to read it but I think it'll be a ways before I even get to show it to them.

Well those are my resolutions, couldn't careless what you think of it but I think it's fine.